Whats next??

Today I'm just wondering what's next? I feel our lives have come to the point where we can do things again.
Allie is going to school, Bryon works and does his thing. So now I'm wondering what does the Lord have for me to do now!? I don't want my life to become idle. I want to start doing things...but what?
The Lord will have to show me. So until then I'll pray and see whats next.

Allie has been doing so well in school. It's nice to see how much she can learn.
I have volunteered one day a week and it's such a blessing to see how the teachers work with the students. The kids are fun to be around. I never thought my life would have gone in this direction.
Funny how God changes things in our lives....

Today

A new day has started today. Allie is at school, Bryon is working, and I'm enjoying the alone time. I actually got to lay in bed for a while. I mean just lay there and do nothing. No baby needing me, no Bryon needing me to do something. It was so nice. I guess I forgot what is was like to have no noise in the house. It's nice to just collect some thoughts and think about life and what the Lord is doing.

Thinking about the Lord...it's been a while. I realize that I have been so busy that I haven't really sat and thought about what does the Lord want to do in my life today. When our life gets so routine you forget about a life outside of that routine. There is so much I have learned in the past 2 1/2 years that I think I might start blogging about those things. Some are good and some are not so good but it would be nice just to share. It also I believe can be a healing tool for me. I would love some insight on what you all who read this think?

A Day Like Any Other!?

I sat outside today and watched the boats go by and people having fun. I guess today is a big family or friends hang out day!? It kind of depressed me...because I guess I have been so busy with my issues that I have forgotten and maybe have shunned my friends in some way. I see people writing about their cookouts with family and friends and I realized that because of our life with Allie and turning down so many friends with invites that we are no longer invited anywhere any more. I really didn't mean to! It's weird but I'm happy being back in FL but I feel just as isolated here as I did in CA. I guess I just wonder where did all my friends and family go? I don't mean to be so gloomy but it really hit me today.

Freedom!!!!

Sometimes we take freedom for granted. In the past 2 1/2 years I have rushed to do everything. I eat fast, shower fast, and shop fast. I have to so Bryon can work and I can be there for Allie.
When Allie was getting ready to start school I was so scared. I've never been away from her like this before. Well after two days of school, the first making me a walking wreck of a mom, the second actually enjoying some time with Bryon for the first time in years.... I think I like this school thing. I really can get a lot done without the rushing. I can think and relax and actually eat my meals at a normal pace. I was looking so forward to having this, this week but...Allie is home from school sick. I'm bummed. But we still have the rest of the year.
I think life is starting again for us!

Listen to Me Complain!?

Sometimes life just passes so fast. I haven't blogged in so long....
My thoughts lately turn toward our opinions on politics and certain bills being passed. It seems most Christians don't like what they see....so my opinion being different is not excepted. They won't even hear of it. But you know what? God created me with a brain and I can make my own opinions and decisions on issues whether you like them or not! Why do some Christians say they doubt your very salvation if you don't have their views?...don't be so narrow minded and for once step out of your little bubble and see the world as it really is. It's not all evil out there. Turn off your Fox news and listen to some real news.

Start acting as Jesus lived...He was out there with the world, talking to them and eating with them. Being a friend to them.

The world is not the problem it's I believe some of the so called Christians in the world......

April 29, 2009 A day of Sorrow??

This day marks the second anniversary of our lives changing forever. The call came early that morning two years ago, that Allie was not breathing and on the way to the hospital. Our lives have changed BIG time. We have devoted our lives to this child. It's been a long journey and one that I will never regret. Allie has become such a blessing to our lives. She has helped us grow in ways we never thought. I personally have had to deal with issues that I've never seen in myself until she came into our lives. As Allie continues to grow I hope to continue to grow with her and Bryon for the better, the way God wants us to!
I'm tired of living the victim. I need to count everyday a blessing not another hard day bringing up a handicapped child. Everyday I have with Allie is a blessing and that's the attitude I need to find in my heart.
Allie is a happy go lucky kid. She laughs all the time. Even though she has her limitations. This is her life...she knows no other.
Allie almost died that week. God spared her life and gave her to us. I can do nothing but thank Him, even when the day is tough.
So this day will no longer be a depressing, feel sorry for myself and Allie day. It will be one of rejoicing that God found us worthy to have her. The most precious gift anyone can have.

God Works

It's been a trying week. Allie in the hospital and all. I feel like my faith has really be tested this week. You go in to a routine surgery to find your baby having all kinds of problems. I got a little angry wondering why the Lord allows this to happen to this poor baby. Hasn't she been through enough!? The Lord showed me two things.

1. As my faith wavered He sent a friend who has tremendous faith to pray for Allie when I could not. Allie started getting better after that visit.

2. I read this from a book I'm reading and it really hit home.
"Instead of focusing upon what God can do, we must humble ourselves to accept the ways he has chosen to work with us."

Allie is getting better and I hope we can bring her home tomorrow or even today. Thanks to everyone who has prayed for her.